tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22897703473578616072024-02-06T19:36:30.221-08:00Till My Dying DayKemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.comBlogger118125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-24852395856881093302013-08-29T09:48:00.000-07:002013-08-29T09:48:16.352-07:00Hello Hello Hello!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I know, I know I've been scarce.<br />
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It's really just been a combination of not having enough motivation to blog, feeling I don't have any much more to say, and life just throwing an incredible amount of whirlwind our way (good and bad). The usual. I think we've been through a lot this year but in an incredible way. I'm always amazed at how God works. So much learning and so much growing this year, but I'm thankful things have not REALLY gone crazy and God's peace has really been with us throughout. I've been feeling very peaceful lately and feeling lucky, blessed, favored. <br />
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I suppose first things first, no Bo and I did not have any children. It is just still "us two". I think we were trying for a whopping period of about two weeks (ha!) before we (I) decided to extend the timeline yet again. The good thing though is, we are both definitely ready for that phase of our lives. It took us a long time to get there though! We're at peace, we're happy, we've finally saved up some money, and God has provided for every and each one of our concerns. By God's grace our family will extend in the next 12 months. <br />
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As for us, we're doing splendidly. I'm extremely proud of us. I'm more in love with my hubby today than I was the day we married, even than I was 2 years ago. We're truly happy. It's taken a long time to get here it seems but we're the best thing in each other's lives. I'm never happier than when I'm with him and I hope it's the same for him. Although the million kisses are not a daily occurence anymore, they do come almost every other day. Sometimes I think if people see how affectionate we truly are with each other at home, they'd probably puke...we're very very affectionate with each when it's just us two. It's nice and there's no day I don't wake up extremely thankful for this rare gift. Make no mistake, it's rare. I am lucky, blessed, and thankful for it all.<br />
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Hope everyone is doing well. I've been keeping up sporadically with my blogworld friends and right now I've got to go see what <a href="http://themauritzfamily.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Amy</a> and<a href="http://faith-lovefamilymarriage.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"> Faith</a> are up to!<br />
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Just a quick update. Plus ca change, plus c'est la meme chose!Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-53785910873661421152013-04-02T16:26:00.002-07:002013-04-02T16:26:29.750-07:00Marry a Gentleman!Bo is a gentleman. I don't mean that in the cutesy way people say but I mean really, he is a gentleman. He won't sit while there are women standing, he'll open doors for you, he'll carry the heavy loads or if the load isn't heavy, he'll still carry it anyway, he's a regular knight in shining armour. Not only Bo though, but all his friends. It's just how they've been brought up and their schooling. And it's not just with their spouses and family but to everyone. Life with someone is much much easier when the other person is a gentleman. It's like a code of behaviour you can always count on. <br />
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I think it's a good thing to look for this in a potential partner. How does he treat, speak to, speak about the women in his life? How does he relate to elderly, friends, acquaintances, his boys, etc. How do his friends relate to their partners? Keep a close eye on these things. Trust me it feels good when my husband takes on the qualities of a good knight...*chuckle. I feel special and cared for and loved. It's a great feeling so advice from me to anyone reading this and still looking, fid a gentleman. Not a roughneck, not a rowdy randy man about town, a gentleman who opens the door for you, just because.<br />
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Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-33864059848388560602013-03-06T01:04:00.001-08:002013-03-06T01:04:31.635-08:00Catch Up...How Are YOU Doing?Hello to everyone out there.<br />
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Happy New Year and happy everything that has passed while I've given the blog a bit of a rest. It wasn't really by choice but it is quite possible that I'm growing past blogging in general. I've also tried to declutter my other tech/social media communication outlets. Sometimes I feel there's entirely too much sharing and I just want to live and experience my journeys rather than always documenting everything as I go along.<br />
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Considering that the last few times I blogged, a lot of negativity came out of the woodwork, it was also a good time to give it (and give them) a rest. I was quite frankly so surprised at how reluctant some people are to 1) be happy for another human being 2) believe that true happiness does exist. I was saddened by what I was reading and I didn't want to be sad about it anymore in many cases. Bo simply would shake his head at me and wondered why I was even getting so involved to begin with. It got downright mean and catty and I was confused and surprised that such could result from a blog that truly comes from a beautiful place on my part - to chronicle and to share. We as women don't share our experiences very often and I think we should, we carry so much. It's hard being a woman! We should stick together and help and support and encourage each other. No Matter What. There's enough negativity in the world, I definitely don't want to be one of the voices adding to it. <br />
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Anyway, Bo and I have been great. We're in the third year of our marriage and certainly no longer in the honeymoon phase...ha! I look at it as us earning our stripes. And three years is not a whole lot, but it's enough to not have an idealistic view of life, of marriage, but conversely, to also still be able to not be stale. We're not quite an old married couple but we're getting there. In my saner moments, I love this. We're just two old fogies, growing old together, and making a life together. It may not be the best possible life, but it's ours and we own it. We're comfortable and settled and we love each other, not in that fairytale way, but in a "flesh of my flesh" way. Bo is my family and within his heart resides my home. If reincarnation were real, my soul would search all over again, until it found his. This I know for sure.<br />
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The good news is...I do believe we shall be trying to expand our family very soon. You know, it's not what I thought it would be like, like they portray in the movies. For us it's not both parent staring with glazed eyes at each other in love as they decide they want to have babies. For us it's so methodical, with many iterations and a final "okay...well, if we must". I think we'll be excited once it finally happens but right now we're more tentative about it all. We've lost about 1/3rd of our income in the last few months due to some scenarios I will not discuss, but I think this largely contributes to our trepidation. Nevertheless, I think we're going to start soon. At least I bought vitamins (though haven't started taking them!), and made an appointment for a preconception check up! We have to be really careful because of my medical condition which I've mentioned a few times. If left unmonitored, it could jeopardize my life. <br />
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I've always said I would try and share this journey on this blog. It could be long, it could be short, it could be stressful, it could be easy. Like I said earlier, we haven't quite started yet, but that's where the train is headed. Or we may chicken out and adopt or something. Who knows - but that's the fun in the journey of life!Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-27439430780492412672012-11-29T03:10:00.000-08:002012-11-29T03:42:24.093-08:00Holidays 2013Bo & I love holidays. <br />
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We have quite different holiday "cultures" shall we say, but one thing is for certain, we do love to travel to new places. Bo is much more of a play it safe person and I'm more of a let's go all out person. Where we both come together is that we both appreciate luxury and fine things. Though Bo likes to play it safe his tastes are probably more lavish than mine and if not for his eyes always being on the bank account, he would definitely plan more luxurious getaways than I would. As it now, we generally decided were we want to go together, I end up planning the type of trip - what we do and how lush we get - we argue and stress out about the budget, then we usually end up somewhere in the middle and have a fantastic holiday!<br />
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This year we went to several places in Europe this was one of the places on the itinerary:<br />
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Bo and I have been going through a challenging time lately. He's so busy right now working on a project and comes home at about 10pm and I'm so busy at work I don't even walk into my home until at least 9pm. We spend what I call tired minutes together - plop down in front of the tv, have some dinner, pretend we're going to spend quality time in front of the tv, fall asleep on the couch in about 5 minutes flat! It would actually be quite funny if it well...if it wasn't! In between my little cousin would call to gist about her boyfriend issues, my mother-in-law would require me to send some recipe, I make sure the cook has made something appropriate for dinner, I make sure the cleaner has her cheque, I get to the gym to workout, it's really exhausting! Most worrying of all though, of course, is trying to find the time to have quality time with my hubby. It's quite frustrating. In the beginning of our marriage I told Bo that my biggest fear is that people drift apart in marriage because of how easy it is to just start living separate lives, where a couple spends 95% of their time outside of each other. To me the easiest path to that for us is work. It got so worrying for me last week friday, that I just had to leave everything to God, saying my golden prayer about God teaching us how to best love each other, to keep each other fulfilled. Sometimes things in life get in the way and one can only cling to the third person in the relationship, i.e God, to hold the reins until something eases up. <br />
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The good news though is that we both love our jobs, love what we do, and feel so fulfilled doing it. I'm really proud that we go against the grain in many aspects. I'm also really at peace in my heart that apart from being spouses to each other, and lovers, we are such great friends. Glad about this because at times like these when energy is spent elsewhere, our basic love, affection, admiration, hangs on to that thread of friendship. A few days ago I was fortunate to get out of the office rather early at 7pm and headed to a restaurant for drinks with a friend, I get a text message from Bo:<br />
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Regarding the previous two posts, thanks to all commenters. Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-60981949469937149972012-10-29T15:44:00.001-07:002012-10-29T15:56:06.978-07:00Kanye Shrug<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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How I wish I could share the chuckle Bo and I just had regarding this post, but I think it's probably best to keep it an inside joke!<br />
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The one thing I've learned for sure in keeping this blog is that the nature of the medium itself allows everyone to participate in one of the purest human ways possible. There's always what is being said, and what is the truth/motivation behind what is being said. I've found that once you can discern the two, it's easier to let go and enjoy the blog for what it is. This goes for both the author and the audience of the blog. I enjoy this aspect so tremendously. Now for the comments section, I've found that it almost always says much more about the person commenting, than the subject the comments are directed to. It is usually out of some personal experience that motivates one to go through the hassle of leaving a comment. Fascinating. Reading comments is my favorite part of keeping this blog.<br />
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Which leads me to my last post. There's a comment by someone called Uloms and a few other visitors (welcome to my blog!). To ease your various concerns for me and my living in bondage or pain (I can't even believe I typed that!) let me reassure you that I am not in bondage or in pain. Thanks for the concern. I'm also quite free. Now, to ask a truly honest question, how would you know if I were telling the truth about being free and not in bondage or in pain? I'm really interested to know mostly because I personally think it would require some sort of leap of faith for you in what I am writing. Believe or not, there's really no way for you to know for sure, ever. So I personally don't see a need for such a strong feeling on the subject! :-)<br />
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There was a comment on infertility. Yes, I have a condition that is similar to, but <b><i>not</i></b>, PCOS. No, your guess was wrong. Bo & I are on birth controls and have never, not once, even tried to TTC. Whenever Bo & I do start TTC, we may have conception issues or we may not. We will cross the bridge when we get there. PCOS and other similar conditions are very serious issues affecting many women the world over and I do not take the issue lightly out of utter respect and compassion for those who struggle with it and its implications daily. I don't bandy it about and it matters to me a great deal that I don't distort my experiences living with it. Thus, if I were TTC and having troubles, I would mention it if only to assure others they weren't alone. To those who care, I don't know what it's like TTC with PCOS because I've never tried, when I do, I will definitely share the journey to provide information and to encourage.<br />
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Lastly, isn't it incredulous that some would say "You are thinking too much about having a baby"? It's a baby for chrissakes! I like that I oscillate about whether or not I'm ready, I do think it's completely responsible and acceptable behaviour to consider all options and listen to all experiences before embarking on such a journey. It is good to read all sorts of books, to talk about it, to be honest with oneself and to explore one's emotions. These are all great things to do before bringing another human being into the world. I'm supposed to be allowed to go on incessantly about weddings and love but I can't go on incessantly about such a key product of weddings, marriage, and love? Really? Furthermore, it would not be responsible behaviour on my part to imply in any way that all women must want babies, and/or all women must be so sure in their hearts about their feelings and desires. <b><i>It is entirely okay, not be so sure</i></b>. If there are people out there who have made decisions not to have babies or to defer their child-rearing periods and never talk about this decision because it was such an easy no-brainer, I'm happy for them. Alas, as for me, I have a blog and I'm free to talk about it, the way I feel it. I like that my posts show it is not an easy decision and it's okay to go back and forth. <br />
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This blog is about happily ever after, the real story of love, marriage, relationship. The happily ever after where babies are discussed over and over again, mortgage, paying for school fees, leaving a will in case of unexpected death, saving and scrounging for cash and savings, getting your heart broken by your spouse, cuddling to sleep, and waking up to 1000 kisses are discussed. <br />
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To just look at pretty wedding pictures and skip over the daily routines of building a life, there's always the Bella Naija wedding pages!<br />
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<br />Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com26tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-84674098441966419822012-10-19T02:19:00.000-07:002012-10-19T02:19:09.313-07:00On EverythingOne of my favorite book titles is called On Beauty by Zadie Smith, and even though I still have not gotten around to completing the book, I do think it's a fantastic title. Like the beginning of a conversation, or a telling of sorts. So since the breaks here are getting wider and wider, I'll use that same format.<br />
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On Life in General<br />
I'm in a decent place with life. I feel like I have a good grasp on what to expect and what not to expect out of people, out of situations, out of life. I'm finally comfortable and confident with that. It's different from the younger days where one's head was in the clouds and the paths to this or that seemed like such a straight line, a straight story. However life is not like that. The beauty of life is that it can be unpredictable so one has to be flexible. This is a lesson to learn and I'm finally in a peaceful place about this. <br />
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Over the last few years, all stemming from my wedding period, I've had to evaluate what friendship and family means to me. There were friends who showed themselves to not be very friendly and there were family members who it became obvious wanted me to fail than to be happy and healthy. Also after marriage I immensely enjoyed new friendships forged with women who were also newly married and going through the same stage as I am. That, surprisingly, has been short lived. I'm finding that that entire period really has a rapidly approaching expiry date on it. I really enjoyed it but now, as I move further and further away from my actual wedding date, those friendships based on the craziness of that period are becoming less relevant to me now. I'm also learning that this is okay. All of this has allowed me to know exactly what I want in a friend and I'm now getting to a point that the people that are around me now, many of whom are new friends, are more in line with who I am fundamentally. It's a little bit about common phases in life, and common experiences, but more and more it's more about shared outlook on life in general. This is good. <br />
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Speaking of friendships, I'm currently in a place where I cherish, absolutely cherish the company of other women. I know many ladies tend to be apprehensive about other women, some even defensive, but I've found that I really cherish hanging out with other women. We have so much thrown at us, so much to consider, so much responsibility. I'm just amazed, proud and genuinely interested in each of our stories. I also believe it's important we validate ourselves and we are kind to one another. Everyone needs a little help, and it's just that much more challenging being a Nigerian woman living in Nigeria. So much is expected of you. We should be kind to each other.<br />
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On Having a Baby<br />
Bo and I have decided not to have kids for a few more YEARS. In some ways this has been a hard decision but in many other ways, it's been an easy decision. I'm currently working on a work project and it just dawned on me that I am so much more excited about this project than I am about expanding our unit of two. Like significantly more excited, fired up. I think I've suspected it for a while but I've finally come to peace about the fact that I'm just not a very maternal person. I have so much pressure from all sides: mothers, friends, medical, but at the end of it all this is my life and I only have one to live. I have a responsibility to myself, and to my husband, to pursue and follow my instincts and my gut. My gut says, establish yourself, then establish your home. Truth is, being CEO of a business that is successful, adds to the economy, and employs tons of Nigerians, is more important to me than being a mother right now. It certainly isn't so for everyone but I have to be honest with myself, it is so for me. And this is a hard thing for me to admit and even as I type this, I want to go back and delete the words but I delete from the screen does not mean I can delete from my heart. It's even harder as everyone around me pastes pics of their growing babies, or even as they start the journey as parents of TWO. They have gone so far beyond what my brain can comprehend :-) Their lives seem so different from mine. <br />
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On Marriage<br />
My marriage is the biggest blessing in my life. It is everything and more all at the same time. I am so lucky. I have a home that is happy, and peaceful, and filled with love, support, and kind words. I would like to say though I think increasingly it is important to look for a partner with a genuinely good heart. Someone who is a good person and whose walk in faith is very important to them. I really think that is the secret, everything else is rubbish regardless of what anyone may have you believe. You will know when someone is a good person with a good heart when you see them, they are selfless, they are caring, they want to be helpful, they are are respectful, they are kind, even to those who aren't kind to them. You will know because they do everything to live peaceably with all men. Once you find someone like that, be good to them as well and they will cherish and love you all their days. The hard part of learning to love is learning to love someone's imperfections: not sexy enough, not yellow enough, not buff enough, fat, short, smelly breath, bad kisser, bad dresser, etc etc. Those things are cosmetic and by the very law of nature, all those guys that have all those things tend to know they are hot commodity and are less likely to be kind genuine souls. So give it up. The way Bo dresses now is completely, completely different from how he used to dress when I met him. It wasn't even deliberate on my part, but as part of building our lives together I'm just always there when he shops and he asks for my opinion and I give it - meaning slowly his style has involved into something heavily influenced by me. I would hate to think I missed out on the happiness I have now in my marriage because I thought he was an awful dresser. Take a leap of faith on the nice guy!Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-20999509752418039072012-09-10T10:01:00.000-07:002012-09-10T10:01:04.651-07:00The Elevens - MemeA little while a go, the lovely <a href="http://thesweetbitterlifeofanigboprincess.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Nenyenwa</a> tagged me in a post. My apologies it's taken this long to respond. Things get hectic and sometimes it takes me a while to actually look through all the comments AND act on whatever needs to be acted on. Either, I say late is better than never! :-)<br />
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Onwards.<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">1) Share one word that describes you</span></strong></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;">Kind-hearted</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">2) What is the one misconception about you that you would like to correct?</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="color: #010001; font-family: Times;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;">That I don't work hard to get what I have. I am truly blessed and God strengthens me even when I don't deserve it but I really work hard at everything: work, family, marriage, friendships.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">3) You are gorgeous, smart and have accomplished a lot but would you change anything about yourself? what would it be?</span></strong></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;">I think I would like to be more generous in giving. Giving even to those on the street who ask instead of questioning their motives.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">4) Do you have one movie that you can watch over and over again?</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="color: #010001; font-family: Times;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;">Only You.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">5) What is your favorite type of movie? drama vs comedy vs action and so on</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="color: #010001; font-family: Times;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;">Action, then romantic comedy or historical drama.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">6) Whenever you look in the mirror what do you see? would you change anything about the reflection in the mirror? what would you change?</span></strong></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;">I see a work in progress - meaning, I appreciate where I'm coming from but I've still got a ways to go! </span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">7) Name two things you have to do everyday?</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="color: #010001; font-family: Times;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;">Check my work email, have breakfast.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">8) Do you have a bad habit that is even annoying to you but you have tried to quit and can't?</span></strong></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;">I get so excited sometimes I'm not patient enough to wait for whoever's talking to finish talking. I jump in. Bad habit!</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">9) Remember your last fight (physical or verbal) and share what it is about- it is ok if it is personal and you don't want to share.</span></strong></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;">Definitely verbal - with our driver. He's gone.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">10) Do you talk to yourself while driving (mostly complaining about pedestrians or other drivers)?</span></strong></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;">I talk to myself A LOT while driving. Mostly because I don't listen to the radio or CDs, I like to just be myself and my thoughts in the car.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;"><b><br /></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><strong><span style="font-family: Times;">11) When dating the opposite or same sex, what is usually the deal breaker that makes you say I will never see that guy or gal again? If you are married or in a relationship, think back when you were dating.</span></strong></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #010001; font-family: 'Cherry Cream Soda'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 23px;"><span style="font-family: Times;">Evidence of verbal, emotional abuse. Physical abuse is one that I can't even conceive of, VERY VERY off the charts. But I always look out for emotional abuse - anyone that manipulates your feelings or emotions can be very dangerous and unhealthy.</span></span><br />
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We're slowly moving to our 3rd year and I can hardly believe it. I think about it and I'm immensely proud of many things. One that we've waited this long to have kids. Whenever we used to talk about children before and shortly after engagement, we weren't quite sure we even WANTED children. We liked the peace and quiet and kind of like the way our lives were. Also we wanted to wait till we were a bit more financially stable. That was a big motivation. Not necessarily until we were "rich" but till the point where either our finances were gaining momentum or we were at a place where we could see our goals in the distance. It's been really difficult, and really challenging. A very interesting journey that saw me researching childless marriages, reading books about women who choose never to have children. It had us discussing Bo's really lack of enthusiasm for actually having kids. He didn't NOT like it but I don't think he saw himself in that role at all. I would dip in and out. Still, now we are at such a glorious place. I'm really really really pleased we have been able to wait to get to this point. We've finally paid off all our wedding debts, smoothed out a monthly savings plan, bought a home, things just seem....calm and stable. And all of a sudden, everything doesn't feel out of place in that regard. I've dealt with most of my demons about having children, and Bo is just...amazing. His turnaround is amazing. He seems to now love kids. Whenever we enter a room with kids in it his eyes just sort of twinkle and he loves interacting and playing with them. It's almost like it's a different man. It's really great watching him grow as an individual. We couldn't have done it any other way. We just couldn't have. This has been the best way for us.<br />
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I cherish our time together now. I look at our wedding mate friends, almost all of whom already have at least one child, and I'm really impressed by how they did it and how they cope with it. We couldn't have done it, it wouldn't have been right. We know each other much more deeply than we did before, we're more stable in our love, finances, relationship, it's almost organic that now we're getting to a place where we are very ready for what's next, to introduce another dimension. The surprise I guess is that it's been organic, and I wouldn't have experienced this feeling if we rushed into things. I remember watching a Beyonce interview around when she was pregnant, and she said something like..."Everything feels perfect. Like this is the right time and everything is just falling into place." I GET that.<br />
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Regarding our relationship, our marriage? I'm most amazed by that. I'm so extremely pleased to be out of the wedding phase. Looking back on it now, it was fraught with so much excitement, tension, anxiety...just, newness. I feel now like my life is back to normal, except I'm a better me. If that makes any sense. I look at this fragile thing called marriage in absolute awe. It's the most precious thing to me and it's almost like I carry it around in my heart/head like an egg. I'm much much more in love with this man today than I ever was, and it's not even a heart pitter patter type of thing. More that I love who we are together. I love the history, the life we're building together. I love that he's always in my corner. I love that I see his face everyday, and I know in his heart I'm the most important person to him. I love the knowing, what he's about, what's he's not into, how his life is woven together. The slow, undramatic, melting of two lives into one. That is amazing. I cherish it so much. <br />
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We fight so much, we disagree so much, there's indescribable tension a lot of the times but even all of it is part of our story. As the days wear on, we forget some of the rules we made for ourselves sometimes, but I'm just really proud that there are basic tenets that make up the fabric of our relationship, so even when things are really bad, we don't emotionally bruise each other with wanton. I'm proud of that. I'm proud of us. <br />
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Through it all I think I'm most pleasantly surprised firstly that the true "fairytale" doesn't even begin when the credits roll after the wedding. It begins slowly, un-trumpeted, at least a year later. You wake up and realize, now, I can REALLY be with this person for all eternity.<br />
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I am aware that the gift of this relationship is rare, it is uncommon. I think we both are. But shall I tarnish it, or jettison it, or run away, or discredit it for what it is? That would be unfair. It is a blessing of God and I am deeply and forever thankful.<br />
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<br />Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-67090552133707219342012-07-25T05:37:00.000-07:002012-07-25T05:37:45.441-07:00Of Brides and WeddingsI hated being a bride. It's not often that you would see this in print but it's true. I actually googled "I hate planning my wedding" during wedding planning. No joke. It was that bad. I never thought of myself as a bride growing up, I never even dreamt of it. In fact, weddings to me where something that happened to other people, like cheerleading. It just wasn't part of my life plan. Until I became a fiancee and the inevitable had come. <br />
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My wedding and wedding planning were not family love fest. In fact I felt more abandoned than ever. There were no goos and aaahs with my dress, I went alone to all my fittings. We talked about flower girls and ring bearers but the truth was that no one in both our families had kids small enough yet old enough to fit the role. After much wrangling, that idea was jettisoned. I remember getting dressed and it was me and my two bridesmaids. That's it. No aunt knocking on the door, no mothers, sisters, cousins, champagne juice drinking or anything like that. I had tea. I only took one picture with my mother actually and that on her way to her to take her seat at the venue because she was 15min late. <br />
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Another observation in hindsight was that had I known that the fairytale magazine wedding doesn't happen like that for everyone, or that it WAS possible to actually not enjoy parts of the process, I would have taken the time to do things more to my gut. I ended up having a long dress, a long veil, etc etc, but if I were able to do a do-over I think I would do things exactly how I wanted to, even if it was a little odd or quirky. Instead of planning the wedding around whether others would have a good time, I should have planned around whether me and Bo would have a good time.<br />
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I'm writing on this reflection simply because I've noticed that 80% of my friends who are getting married or are close to it, are so focused on the wedding, and I understand, but consider that it may not be exactly as you thought. And like I also advice friends about marriage, with wedding planning, you don't automatically stop being yourself. You still have the same worries, same sense of humor, same wahala, same anxieties as you did before. So don't necessarily expect it to be a Cinderella story, do what it is that's right for YOU, everything else will fall into place.Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-71123175853132511952012-05-20T16:50:00.002-07:002012-05-20T16:50:46.931-07:00Can I Tell You A Story?Wow. I'm so overwhelmed right now. In these past few months I've made it a mission to go out of my way to talk to women about their relationships, their marriages, their experiences. Tonight I had one of those deep conversations that just brought everything home to me. I'm really so overwhelmed and writing this from a place of just......information overload.<br />
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First of all, how do you women do it?<br />
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I mean women who cook, clean, take care of the house, take care of the husband, take care of the staff, take care of the career, take of the parents-in-law, take care of the other in-laws, take care of your own parents, take care of friends, take care of siblings....how do you do it ALL??? My God! Over and over I keep expecting to meet a woman who is like you know what? My relationship is what's most important, I take care of that and we just kind of find our way around each other.<br />
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Then I hear of women who say negative things about their husband to their friends, their mother, aunties, brothers, sisters, cousins. Or who find it hard to have basic conversations with their husbands. <br />
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I'm overwhelmed because I think one, how did I get so lucky, how did God love me so much that I have such a wonderful relationship with my husband without so much drama and/or baggage? Things just came naturally to us like, ok, never swear to your spouse, always appreciate your spouse, never fight in front of others, never.....blah blah blah. We just discussed this from the beginning, agreed, and that was that. While I know we are very lucky us two, I used to think surely this kind of relationship is what others also must work towards. Now I don't think so.<br />
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First, I feel like telling every lady I know, love yourself and be your own woman. Do not wait for a man to complete you. Demand for respect and understanding of your person, who you are, your goals, your experiences. Demand for it and then wait till he shows you with his actions that he gets it. Start exactly how you mean to go. If you are not going to be washing dishes and ironing clothes, just don't do it. Don't. You don't have to fake it, and don't listen to anyone who says you have to fake it. It'll only cause problems later on. Don't behave like a wife before your husband has shown himself to be a man and taken you to your parents saying this is my wife. Just don't do it. By don't behave like a wife I mean you are not his family member yet, don't act like you are. Until he welcomes you into the house formally, be polite to all family members but remain aloof. Maintain a respectful distance. If they love you they should tell their family member to make the next step. <br />
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I think it's important for a man to be a MAN. He should be ready and willing to make those tough calls. Don't make excuses for it. Take nothing else. If anyone wants to be with you, he should show himself to be a man first. And without you pushing or scheming for that.<br />
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Equally important, be kind, be thoughtful, be caring, be selfless, be loving. Be kind. Believe in your partner, believe in his abilities, compliment him, be his number one cheer leader.<br />
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For crying out loud, don't complain or say negative things to people about your husband. Don't tell any living soul he's useless, he's selfish, he's stubborn.....etc etc. Don't. It's not respectful to your husband who's supposed to be the head of the house. Respect him. It's so distasteful. This does not mean don't talk to anyone, but talk about scenarios, talk about circumstances, talk about what your challenges are. But don't talk out of anger and don't ever ever demean your husband to any body...your mother, your brother, your sister, your father, your uncle. You're a big girl. Sort it out!<br />
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I'm saying this because I'm just so overwhelmed with what women who have been candid are saying. The things they do. I want to yell, please marriage is hard enough without you yourself sabotaging it. And I'm not writing from a place of being on a high horse. I hope this isn't misunderstood in that way. Bo & I argue a lot. All the time. I'm willing to tell every and any one this. My second year of marriage has been extremely challenging as we settle the family and dig down to create real family roots. So I understand the unique difficulties. It is out of this I say please, it's hard enough as it is don't sabotage it.<br />
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Not all men are bad, not all men are dogs. Not all men cheat, not all men want housemaids for a wife. Not all men need to be "trained", not all men need to be mothered. Not all men want to be tricked or gamed or deceived. Not all men expect you to be domesticated in the same way. Don't assume they all do. Not all marriages are burdensome. I tell my friends all the time, some people are happy. Some people are actually happy. Don't come in defeatist. You can create a happy environment. It is possible. <br />
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We need to stop sabotaging ourselves. I've just needed to get this off my chest. <br />
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Ladies, chill.Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-7647801659405156292012-04-17T02:36:00.001-07:002012-04-17T02:40:25.005-07:00I tried to write....<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:officedocumentsettings> <o:allowpng/> </o:OfficeDocumentSettings> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:trackmoves>false</w:TrackMoves> <w:trackformatting/> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:drawinggridhorizontalspacing>18 pt</w:DrawingGridHorizontalSpacing> <w:drawinggridverticalspacing>18 pt</w:DrawingGridVerticalSpacing> <w:displayhorizontaldrawinggridevery>0</w:DisplayHorizontalDrawingGridEvery> <w:displayverticaldrawinggridevery>0</w:DisplayVerticalDrawingGridEvery> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:compatibility> <w:breakwrappedtables/> <w:dontgrowautofit/> <w:dontautofitconstrainedtables/> <w:dontvertalignintxbx/> </w:Compatibility> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:latentstyles deflockedstate="false" latentstylecount="276"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--> <!--[if gte mso 10]> <style> /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; 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font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">And fears, and anxieties<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">Of epic and not so epic battles<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">Of the first ebb and flow<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">Then thousand little ebbs and flows<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">I tried to write about me<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">Learning to love<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); 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font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">The time wasn’t slow enough<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">The paper wasn’t long enough<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">My heart wasn’t still enough<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <span style=" color: rgb(84, 141, 212); font-family:Papyrus;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;">So everyday, I write a little more.</span></span><!--EndFragment-->Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-4760804908638455242012-02-23T01:05:00.003-08:002012-02-23T01:36:31.060-08:00Lenten SeasonWhat are you giving up for lent, what are you giving up for Lent? <div><br /></div><div><br /><a href="http://trinityhawaii.files.wordpress.com/2011/03/miracles-of-lent.jpg?w=570" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 265px; height: 400px;" src="http://trinityhawaii.files.wordpress.com/2011/03/miracles-of-lent.jpg?w=570" border="0" alt="" /></a></div><div><br /></div><div>That's the familiar refrain once Ash Wednesday rolls around. Personally I don't believe in giving up one insignificant and/or random thing in your life. Fasting is a worthwhile "skill" to develop as a Christian. The spiritual effects of denying the body nourishment in order to look to God and depend on God wholly and totally for guidance is a really fulfilling one. It's a worthwhile challenge. </div><div><br /></div><div>Last year Bo and I decided we were going to take up the challenge after hearing a powerful sermon at our church the week before Lenten season. We were not going to be dogmatic about it but allow ourselves to be changed and challenged. We discussed as a family three prayer points we wanted to bring before God and that were going to be the theme of our prayers. Whenever the hunger pangs get too much or we think we couldn't possibly make it another minute we pray. We supported each other too. So there were times I'd call Bo begging to break our fast, and he'd talk through it with me and we'd continue. There were days either he or I couldn't make it but instead of dwelling on it, we forgave each other and started anew the next day. It was a very tough and difficult exercise but it was one of the most rewarding experiences I've ever had. One of the things we were praying about we saw a concrete breakthrough even before the end of the Lenten Season. I knew God had answered our prayers because we did not discuss with anybody and the way that door opened was seemingly completely random. It was awesome. And the blessings and lessons we received during the season lasted us throughout the whole year! As a reason we've been looking forward to this special time. I'm challenged even further to ensure that the purpose in my heart is not things, but to strengthen my walk with God and for both of us to mature in our Christianity.</div><div><br /></div><div>We're going to try again this year and it's going to be even more awesome. I chose to blog about this and I guess I may have more spiritual posts in the next 7 weeks, because it is important to me to encourage anybody else in this regard. </div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-65811008596226184742012-02-21T09:33:00.000-08:002012-02-21T10:18:14.802-08:00Day At a TimeI've taken a hiatus from the blog but mostly because I've been busy with work and family. Yes, I know regular excuse. I was not even able to check on my favorite blogs so imagine Bo's confusion when I squealed in excitement for <a href="http://www.fromnowtillido.com/">ChiChi's</a> baby and <a href="http://themauritzfamily.blogspot.com/">Amy</a>'s baby addition! Congratulations to these fabulous new mamas who are a part of my blog community. Your daughters are gorgeous :-)<div><br /></div><div>Nothing much's new in the BoKem household which is just as well. I think I've mentioned here before how rarely we fight or argue which is really a blessing. Also I think we're even more used to each other's nuisances and we respect each other even moreso today than we did when we got married two years ago. So nowadays once we notice tension prone moments we both just slow down and thread carefully in order to diffuse the tension. Initially it was tough to have to will yourself over to your spouse, whom you feel is wrong by the way lol, and do something just to diffuse tension and get things in order. For example it was difficult for me after a tension-filled moment to then go and hug and kiss my hubby and just generally cuddle up to him. I'm getting easier with that. Even if I'm right. Probably it's because we both hate confrontation which works for us! </div><div><br /></div><div>About baby watch, well, I'm in a GREAT place with that. I LOVE that we haven't rushed things and that we talk about having children and raising them so much these days I'm so glad that we have this time to talk around it. We've talked about spacing our kids, we've talked about education and our desires regarding that, we've talking about family dynamics and encouraging equality and confidence between the children, we've talked about the principles and values we want to build within the family unit, and more. It's been really enlightening and I feel so much that we are within God's plan for us. We're in a really good place regarding this I think. I don't feel much that it is about me, I feel that it is about us. I don't feel rushed or hurried. I don't really stay away from children anymore fearing everyone would look at me thinking "awww..." I'm so very confident that when it's the time for us. It will just fit naturally into our lives. No jamming it in there. There's an incredible sense of peace I have now, that I didn't have even 6 months ago and I thank God for that. I think part of why it's this way is that I've fully accepted who I am, who my husband is, and how we feel. It's okay. We don't gawk or fawn at babies, we're very detached about it sometimes. A friend of ours showed us a picture of a baby and she was so smitten, asking me "look, isn't she so cute". Honestly I felt no heart strings. Neither did my husband. She was a bit shocked. I'm now okay with it. That's just the way God made me!</div><div><br /></div><div>On another note, I was out to dinner with my Aunt recently and she tutted at me when I suggested the dinner because she asked me "Hope you've prepared dinner for Bo?" I replied that we both had to eat dinner somehow somewhere and Bo is an adult, I don't have to remain hungry until he eats. We like to eat dinner together, and since I do get home before he does I tend to just make dinner for the both of us however our understanding is that we <b><i>both</i></b> have a responsibility to each other to ensure that the other party is not starving at the end of the day. My Aunt was appalled! Funny enough, Bo came to pick me up from the restaurant, I asked if he was hungry he said yes and we came home and both in the kitchen made stir-fry. He was glad I stuck around the kitchen. That was that. My aunt didn't understand that it was entirely possible for me to eat and enjoy dinner without bothering myself and worrying and preparing my husband's food first. I think it's important to be open-minded, and light-hearted about these things. Whatever works best for my husband and I and the lifestyle we lead is what I will do. I have no interest in being my husband's mother, he's got a very capable mother! I'm his hot, sexy, interesting, intelligent, funny babe, Ha!</div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-16232045451004302462012-01-04T01:39:00.000-08:002012-01-04T02:27:33.332-08:00Continuous LearningHappy New Year to you and yours. Very happy and grateful to God to be alive to witness this new year and I pray that all reading this will be sustained under His grace and mercy throughout this year. Remember to renew your prayer life, He will answer whenever you call. Amen.<div><br /></div><div>The holiday was very relaxing in the BoKem household. Nothing really stressful. We both needed a good mind-numbing vacation and happily sank into the nothingness of the days. By the end of it though, Bo was ready to get back to work (and start making money lol) and I was ready to re-energize and re-focus. As talked about in the last post we have a loose plan for 2012 so we know each other's priorities individually and as a unit. We also sat down during the holidays to do a monthly budget in excel, so there's less tension regarding finances and saving. I'm very big on saving this year, and now with the removal of fuel subsidy, that has become even more imperative. </div><div><br /></div><div>On to other things, one of my grand prayers when praying about Bo and I is that God should teach us how to love each other the way the other person needs to be loved. Sometimes I just shorten it to Lord teach us how to love each other. I find this is a grand prayer because it just encompasses every single challenge within a relationship, within a marriage. Both parties aren't perfect and will never be, so the remainder 20% that's not what you bargained for you've got to occupy it and love it away. That's really the big challenge. I read in one of Gary Chapman's books where he said he used to always complain about his wife NEVER shutting the drawers/cabinets in the house, which was especially upsetting since he always managed to run into it. After years of complaining about this he just realized that, well, his wife may NEVER change and if he was going to lead a happy (injury-free) life, he's going to have to learn to shut drawers/cabinets all over the house. I always remember this story because I believe it's a great attitude to have about many things, especially within a marriage. Bo is an incredible neat freak, which is great, but for some reason he never puts empty water bottles in the bin, he always leaves them hanging about the kitchen sink. This used to bother me until I just said to myself, well, he may NEVER change this so I'm going to have to resign myself to putting empty water bottles in the garbage. That's my job. I'm going to be okay with that :-) </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>This morning Bo says to me, I know you've been planning your birthday Asia trip for a while now, but I was looking at my calendar for work and noticed that your birth month is strategy month at work so I won't be able to take any trips during that month. See, this is where everything I've been writing on this blogpost comes together: my prayer that God teaches us each how to love each other, and Gary's advice to resign yourself to fill in the 20% that bothers you. My husband works in a very demanding industry and moreso he LOVES his job so working is something that fulfills him and I get and respect that. But I also don't desire to move my birthday trip because of his work. I told him this morning that I'd have to go by myself then or with a couple of girlfriends if they can swing it. This is obviously not what I want but while I truly understand his desire to be at work I also feel strongly about taking this trip during my birthday month not a month or two after. I'm not sure this is the best decision yet, so therefore this morning I'm humming my golden prayer in my head over and over, "God please teach me (us) how to love each other the way we need to be loved! Teach me (us) what I should do or say in this situation."</div><div><br /></div><div>We'll see how it goes!</div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-59806842785292929222011-12-27T15:02:00.000-08:002011-12-27T15:51:39.673-08:00Season's Greetings!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3Zsj3IfX81mpD6IlvW70_k4QtLxyPg7rOdVMwmEpf6qjW4jY8fQu2i_NNmlXJrcCZ5RC893Bcmv24yRyOtuAY8UuZwNClHsLs9OQ9jWVFzNMqsEizLgbPht9J8u9Nrm7ImHaaOhMWy0AN/s1600/e-card_website.png" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3Zsj3IfX81mpD6IlvW70_k4QtLxyPg7rOdVMwmEpf6qjW4jY8fQu2i_NNmlXJrcCZ5RC893Bcmv24yRyOtuAY8UuZwNClHsLs9OQ9jWVFzNMqsEizLgbPht9J8u9Nrm7ImHaaOhMWy0AN/s200/e-card_website.png" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5690948630583160610" /></a>What did everyone do for the Christmas? The beau and I just laid low and didn't do anything funky, just cuddled and loved up on each other! It's very VERY rare that we both are not working so it was really fantastic to just have late mornings, lazy afternoons, and quiet evenings. We did go out to eat on Christmas day and it was fantastic. I love Bo's company quite a lot and was really grateful to be on a "date" with him on this special day. I think Christmas and this season in general is for family and since right now we're a family of only two it feels very odd. My entire family lives abroad and so does Bo's (except his parents who also spend Christmas abroad) so it was just us two :-) I'm not sure which traditions we're going to embark on once the family expands but at this rate we have to think of something!<div><br /></div><div>Though we had agreed that we wouldn't be giving gifts this year, my husband surprised me with <b>TWO</b> gifts! They were absolutely fabulous and it's official that my husband spoils me. He is one of those men that wants his wife to have the finest of things, and like I've resorted to telling him these days, "I can't wait till you're wealthy because I know you will SPOIL me!" Whenever I say this, Bo just shakes his head and laughs. He loves his wife :-) I felt so special when I received the gifts I cried. I always cry when he gives me gifts, I don't know why. I just feel so incredibly lucky and undeserving of his love and affection. I remind myself that in marriage, and in our partner, we get the closest to experiencing on earth, the kind of love God feels for us. Through my husband I'm able to ponder the magnitude of God's love for me. It's amazing. </div><div><a href="http://www.paris-export.com/image/cache/data/Bijoux/bracelet%20hermes-500x500.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="http://www.paris-export.com/image/cache/data/Bijoux/bracelet%20hermes-500x500.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a>Yesterday after having breakfast, Bo and I proceeded to talk about our relationship and our plans for the upcoming year. It was quite a spontaneous conversation but I really ended up liking it so it's probably something I'll encourage for the future. Essentially each of us named 5 things we were planning/hoping for for next year and then going down the list flesh out in details what actions we would have to take to achieve those goals. Two things both Bo and I had on our lists: build a better relationship with spouse/strengthen or sweeten the relationship; get a definitive answer on children. We ended up having a long conversation on the latter which I think has brought us closer to the same page. There were loads of talking and giggling (on my part) throughout the conversation. We were seated outdoors and it was just blissful. I'm blessed. Many people say having kids is really hard because it's like having your heart outside of you, walking around. That must be incredible because I feel the same way about Bo now. This evening I told him exactly that, he responded he felt the same way and I wondered to myself if I feel this way about my husband how will I feel about a child? Can one love even more than this?</div><div><br /></div><div>For those who think, "this is too fairytale like", I'll have you know Bo and I had a massive fight about a week and a half ago. Massive. I was depressed the entire day. Luckily for me, when Bo got back he bee-lined straight to me and asked that we talk. We talked the issue out but sometimes it's really hard to let the angry emotion go but one of the things I'm committed to challenging myself to is being able to just accept an apology or the explanation of an intent, and LET IT GO. Letting go for no absolute reason is really hard but I'm learning it. I decided to forgive my husband and just move on with life. This is how we've been able to move the pendulum back to the "mushy" mood we're in now. I think he forgives me too. </div><div><br /></div><div>I look to him as he's sleeping beside me now and I'm truly overwhelmed by how lucky and blessed I am. Thank You God. For 2012 I pray You teach us how to love each other better. Amen. </div><div><br /></div><div>Happy New Years in advance and thanks for reading my blog in 2011!</div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-77930844253274567622011-12-05T04:22:00.000-08:002011-12-05T05:26:54.874-08:00And We DancedIf you were passing the aisles at Spar in Lekki, you may or may have not seen myself and my beau dancing to a christmas tune. I mean real dancing, hands placed on hip and neck, other hand clasped, swaying to the music. Well it was mostly Bo trying to get me to dance and me, trying not to look embarrassed in the store, in front of the milk display! :-) It was sweet though and now as I sit thinking about that I'm grinning ear to ear at the memory, and this my funny hubby!<div><br /></div><div>We've been talking baby a lot lately and I think we're moving along nicely into perhaps expanding our unit soon. This morning Bo and I were having our morning talk, reluctant to get out of bed and he kisses me deeply and says, I think we should have a baby. A deep sigh on my part. He's been sounding more and more comfortable with the idea lately, and the more comfortable he sounds the more assured I am that I don't want to have them soon. I think my mind just likes playing hide and seek with me so whenever I think well, maybe...Bo is hesitant and whenever Bo's so sure of things, I'm a little more than hesitant. Either way, it's beautiful when your husband wants to have a child with you. I mean that in a purposeful way, not in a rushed, or well, we might as well, or that's what marriage is for isn't it kind of way. But in a way that he randomly says as he hugs you, imagine having our baby in the next room. Or I think I'm lucky you'll be the mother of my kids. That is coming from the heart, from abounding love, as opposed to from some sort of sense of duty. This is what we wanted and I'm so grateful to God He is faithful and answers the prayers of our heart. </div><div><br /></div><div>I think that perhaps if I had gotten married earlier, maybe 22 or 23, perhaps I would have been more enthusiastic about baby-making or motherhood in general. Now I think I understand a little better some older women who are just reluctant to upend their lives or routine for new romances. I'm not <b><i>old</i></b>, but honestly, I love my relationship and I love the lives we lead now. It feels complete to me. Moreso I read about early and later motherhood/parenthood all the time, and not much of it seems appealing to me. I'm truly serious, not much of it appeal at all. I sit and talk to new mothers, used-to-it mothers, old-school mothers, and it all definitely sounds like a journey, an adventure, but it has very little draws. I mean I love children, I love all my nieces and nephews in my life and they truly light up my life, but I'm not rosy-eyed about the true reality of birthing then caring for a human being from baby to adulthood. Perhaps I know too much, read too much, and ask too much! I think many ladies think of pregnancy and though anxious, they are interested somehow or look forward somehow to the changes, I don't. Instead of wondering what if..., I'm thinking, "sigh, life's terribly unbalanced, do I <i>haaave</i> to? sigh again...." This is how weddings felt to me also: it's just something magical that other people do, not me. I recognize this feeling, I tried to swat it away but I'm realizing now, it was all true in the end. My wedding was nice, but it certainly wasn't earth shattering and I barely remember the entire day. It's just a day. My wedding dress lies at the bottom of a heap in a bag, I can't say I have any sentimental attachments to it. This is somehow how I feel about having kids. It's all nice and I understand how some can feel consumed by it, but I fear for me, I'm terribly neutral. </div><div><br /></div><div>At least as of this moment. Oh I'm sure I'll go through everything, and I pray God overlooks my "silliness" but I have a feeling like everything else in my life, my wedding, my marriage, my relationship, my career, this I'm probably going to do this my way, which almost all the time, means not the way of most people. </div><div><br /></div><div>Bo says this morning, you know there are people who are just waiting to see how we will handle it all. Those thinking, let's see them dancing in the aisles at the grocery store with a baby. Not. Gonna. Happen. He says well, it'll be the two of us, we built this relationship how we wanted it to be, and kids may change everything we know now, but it'll still be the two of us, and we'll re-build something else entirely and that's okay. </div><div><br /></div><div>That comforts me. </div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-64129269435287325612011-11-11T02:56:00.000-08:002011-11-11T03:30:56.996-08:00Approaching 2 years...Thinking about Bo and I moving closer to our 2nd year mark. Time does fly. We've been married almost 2 years, lived together almost 3 years, dated for almost 5 years. The numbers seem completely incredulous to me. My husband is my best friend, he's my shining armour, he's my fall guy, he's my Batman and I'm his Robin. A friend asked us recently if we thought we were still in the honeymoon phase. My answer was very clear and I think she was a bit shocked by it. Almost immediately I responded that I don't think we're in the honeymoon phase any longer. Certainly I'm not. I looked over at Bo to get his own response and he agreed that he doesn't believe we're in the honeymoon phase any longer. We're in quite another phase all together. One that I'm so happy with. We both responded that what we have now is more sustainable. It doesn't sound romantic does it? However, to be very honest, it's more romantic to me than anything else. <div><br /></div><div>Take for example this week. I think we've had a small tiff for the past three days over some miscommunication. There were small squabbles but there was still tension. However on all three days the presence of tension in our discussion doesn't rattle us any longer. We just take a deep breathe, listen even more carefully and speak even more even-minded. One party sees the other side or we just agree to disagree and move on with kisses laughter and hugs. I love that. We're not goo-goo eyed at each other marveling about how perfect the other person is but we're holding on tight to each other because we realize this is the only other person who knows how messed up I can be sometimes and still wants to stick around for the next moment. That's why we hold each other tighter these days. Our laughter is real, soft, and genuine. </div><div><br /></div><div>I read somewhere recently that your husband cannot be your best friend. In the same book there are stories of wives who take summers away from their husbands, or who cultivate intimate but non-sexual relationships with people outside their marriage. It works for them I suppose but also for me, truly, my husband IS my best friend. I never get tired of his company or having him around. Our conversation NEVER gets stale or boring to me. At least not yet anyway. The other day Bo and I were watching a movie and though he sat reclining on the sofa, I sat up but throughout the movie, no matter how I shifted or he shifted, Bo's hand would somehow find it's way to the small of my back or to my thigh and just rest there. I don't think he knows this but I felt just so connected to him even then. It was so subconscious for him, I don't think he was even thinking about it - I would shift a bit, and his hand would move but the moment I settled back down, there went his hand back to the bottom of my back. Just two souls, sharing their lives, sharing their space, sharing their experiences. </div><div><br /></div><div>I'm one of those people who believe in renewing their marriage vows frequently. I've been thinking about which milestone would be best to start this tradition. Bo knows this and just rolls his eyes at me everytime I mention it, LOL. I'm thinking our fifth year anniversary. May God keep us to see that day in joy. I have grand plans for my fifth. A new ring, a beautiful dress, and a beautiful reception with just close family and friends, outdoors somewhere. So for me I'm very happy with 2 but 5, now THAT's going to be a party! </div><div><br /></div><div>BabyWatch: I'm afraid it's all silent on that front! I had a dream recently about when I would have my first child. In the dream my age was made very clear to me. I don't know if it was some sort of revelation we will see. Right now Bo and I are very much in a non-baby phase. Sometimes I feel we could be like this forever...</div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-60867463069397515442011-10-18T01:28:00.000-07:002011-10-18T02:37:55.115-07:00Proverbs 31 Wife/Being SubmissiveI admit it. Whenever I hear someone say, or read somewhere, "the Proverbs 31" wife, my eyes roll so far back into my head. Here we go. I for one thinks there are way too many "instructions" out there for the woman and not nearly enough out there for our men. This is why when I read about the 1 Timothy man <a href="http://inthemidstofher.blogspot.com/2011/03/my-criteriathe-measure-of-man-part-1.html">here</a>, it really did resonate with me and I agree with every single thing she wrote. Nevertheless every time I still hear that P31 woman thing, I cringe. The whole thing always remind me of this song:<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/ZnxrOuurJSg" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe><br /><br /><div>Yes. Nigerians I feel especially love the P31 verses because I think it caters very nicely to our "Mommy Martyr"/"Saint Wife" way of life around these parts. All of this contributes to my cringing and eye-rolling.</div><div><br /></div><div>Let's consider the verses if we can for a moment. First of all, it seems a bit out of place doesn't it? Out of nowhere, like it was tacked on at the last minute, or after a while. This is furthered by the fact that it's the last chapter in Proverbs. But be that as it may, I've also tried to find out more about the context and the writer. P31 is supposed to have been written of an advice of King Lemuel's mother to the King. Many biblical scholars believe that King Lemuel was the same as King Solomon. In that case, the words of P31 are Bathsheba's advice to her son. It is said that she gave this advice to Solomon after a drunken revelry in which he woke up late the next morning, and in waking him up is when Bathsheba gave him this "oracle" or advice. The context I find really illuminates the chapter. Bathsheba essentially admonishing her son over his drunkenness (and possibly womanizing) and in the same breath encouraging him to find a wife of "noble character". So although Solomon is indeed King, and a blessed one at that (1 Kings 10:23) his mother still desires him to have a hardworking wife, trustworthy, charitable, creative, etc. Or, perhaps since Solomon did have many wives, she was just admonishing him to remember the good works of his wife/wives (Pharaoh's daughter?). In the last verse it says "Give her the reward she has earned..."</div><div><br /></div><div>So there, to me that is the context. For me, I don't want to be Martyr Wife, or Saint Mommy. I just want to be the best person I can be, which does fall in with the P31 woman, but it's not a burden or ghost or yolk that I carry about upon my shoulders. I just want to be a good person. A credit to my husband and children, one who has respect from the community because of her character, good works, and honor brought upon her by the standing of her husband "at the city gates". </div><div><br /></div><div>Now on being submissive, for some reason many people bring that up also when they talk about the P31 woman, though being submissive is not mentioned anywhere in that chapter. It is mentioned elsewhere in the bible though. Submissive. That is also another word that whenever it creeps into conversations about marriage, my eyes do their thing again or I just cringe. I had to deal with this after I got engaged. What did I believe? and How can it be realistically actioned while still staying true to myself? I reasoned that I agree that there cannot be two masters to a ship. There can only be one master. One person who's word carries a bit more weight in family matters, one person to make the final decision: Yea or Nay. I want my husband to be the head of the household, to enjoy all the honor and respect that position brings. That can never be compromised by anybody. If that is to be so to the outside world, then that has to be so first in our home. This reasoning gave me peace. To me that's what "submit to the authority of your husband" means. I remember having this conversation with Bo when we were talking about role expectations in a marriage. I told him, you are the authority in this home, you are the head of this family, there's respect and honor in it, but there's also responsibility with it. And always remember that the power of your authority comes from my relinquishing that position to you (as directed and empowered by God, but actioned by me all the same). You must love, honor, and respect me for that act. He agreed, and honestly we've never really talked about it since then. I know my husband and I are on the same page, I know he carries me along fully in EVERY single decision, we are equal partners in every thing and every way, yet I know and he knows, that when it comes down to it, he's the decision maker, he's the trump card. </div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com25tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-55740398376892872232011-10-14T11:06:00.000-07:002011-10-14T11:34:25.975-07:00Ain't No Sunshine When He's Gone<a href="http://hellobeautiful.com/files/2008/12/black-couple-hugging.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 425px; height: 235px;" src="http://hellobeautiful.com/files/2008/12/black-couple-hugging.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />I'm kind of sad and restless. The hubster's gone off to London for about a week for work, leaving Ms. Wifey (that's me) here by my lonesome. One one hand it's nice to be able to just relax and not worrying about house chores, and just to think I can decide to do dishes at 1am if I want, bliss! But overall, I just want to run back to the airport and be in my man's arms where everything is safe, and where love resides. Recently I've found myself taking the piss where Bo is concerned, I just bury my head in his chest and behave like a kid. I don't know where it comes from but I every thing just seems to melt away when I do that and I DO feel like a carefree, happy child. <div><br /></div><div>Bo & I haven't been arguing recently which always makes me weary. I mean I'm very lucky but we do get along incredibly well, for that I'll always be grateful to God. Sometimes we can go for months without any incident at all, just love love and more love. I had the flu a few days ago and was sitting in bed, just sniffling and sneezing. Bo comes up to me and says "show me how to waltz." Of course I'm thinking he's nuts, it's 10pm! He says no really, show me. Now once in a while Bo & I just either dance in our living room or in our bedroom and I've always tried to get him to do the basic waltz steps but he always looks at me as if I have five heads. So I was quite surprised when he asks if I can teach him. I get up anyway, and teach him the basic box step. Before long we're doing a very very rickety waltz, mind you, but still a kind of waltz and we're just chuckling away falling over ourselves. I felt really really happy then. It's past 10 and we're being silly in our bedroom and it's like even my body has forgotten that it's battling the flu. We have many moments like that are so special to me. The picture up there pretty much sums it up for us, dancing in our living room, me with a wide grin, or a sly smile. </div><div><br /></div><div>Back to no arguments, is it strange for a married couple to practically go months without even a disagreement? We were out to lunch with some friends last weekend and a friend of mine exclaimed "you guys are so much alike!" It made me laugh so much because originally, we're not alike at all, or so it would seem on the surface, but perhaps we do have much more in common in terms of personality and outlook than I realized. Whatever it is, I'm happy to say my streak of re-falling in love with my husband is still alive and well. I'm thoroughly enjoying being married to the man I'm married to. I'm so blessed, when one considers what happens to others out there. Which reminds me, (boy, it seems I have a lot to say today!), I'm noticing something about myself that I can't really explain. Whenever I see a couple that seems more "couple-y" than Bo & I, or just extremely happy and in love, I start getting competitive about it, as if we're the only ones that should be that happy! Isn't it ridiculous? Like I like the reputation Bo & I have amongst our friends that we're the "IT" couple that whenever I observe a couple "threatening" our title, I get jealous. It's funny to me. I should be happy for them, instead I'm thinking, gosh, I hope Bo & I still look this cute... it's just one of those things :-)</div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-71378974150369567052011-09-20T08:21:00.000-07:002011-09-20T08:47:13.636-07:00Bo Answers! Part TwoI'm sorry I've kept the second part of Bo's answers to your questions. They've been answered for some quite some time now but other things have gotten in my the way of my posting it. Either way, here it is now. I can't even remember the answers he gave but do enjoy reading!<br /><br />***********<br /><br /><b>5. How did you know you met the one? Where there other ladies you felt could also become your potential wife before meeting /choosing Kemi? How did you know Kemi was the one for you?<br />a. How did your christian faith inform your interactions with Kemi? <br />b. Culturally, what makes you different from the other men in your culture? Is it easy for you to go against the grain?</b><br /><br />I don’t believe in ‘the one’. I believe that for any person, there is a small set of people with whom a marriage relationship can work. I also believe that this set probably changes over time. Were there other ladies that I felt could also be my wife? Yes, there were other friendships that I considered. Why Kemi? She was my best friend at the time when the prospect of being married started to sound ‘cool’. A little mundane perhaps but I didn’t have the ‘this is my wife’ moment.<br /><br />I believe my faith informs all my friendships (I continue to pray that it does) Regarding a mate (btw I hate that expression), in my single days, when dining alone I always prayed for the person who would share the meal with me as my wife (if I got married), that God would prepare us. When I dated, the prayer would be a little more specific to the person I was dating but also with a caveat in case my wife was still out there. When I had decided on Kemi as my wife, I dropped the caveat and started praying about our life together.<br /><br />What makes me different from others in my culture? I’m not sure that I’m really different. I hope I am but I fear that I’m not. I live in a deeply patriarchal society in which men really do have it all. Despite this, I try to stand against what I think is unfair and in all my dealings (within or without my marriage) I try to not be patriarchal and to treat women truly as equals. My conviction in this regard also includes speaking up whenever you see inequality anywhere but I fear in this regard I’m not doing as good a job as I should.<br /><br /><br /><b>6. How do you feel about your wife gaining weight or having stretchmarks after having a baby? Is there pressure to lose the weight?<br />a. Your wife works, but would you ever want her to stay at home? Does her working affect you in anyway?</b><br /><br />This is a hard one because I know how particular Kemi is about always being physically fit so irrespective of what I think I believe I would just have to bite my tongue when it comes to that. Also I feel part of the baby weight gain would obviously be my fault, since I’m part of it all so I just see it as part of the sacrifices we both have to make to be parents, and there are many sacrifices on both parts, and weight gain is not the biggest one. So no, I don’t think there’s pressure from me for her to loose weight because I’m sure she would already be putting herself under a lot of pressure to loose weight.<br /><br />I’m not that fussed about her staying at home right now. I would hope that we can reach an understanding later on what’s best for our children especially in their earlier years but that’s a conversation I’m willing to have as it comes up since our needs and our situation may be different then. Right now her working affects me positively: money in the bank! And also negatively because her work can get highly stressful and that is something we both have to share.<br /><br /><b>7. How do you resolve conflicts?<br />a. Jealousy in marriages, from both sexes, is it good or bad? Also can it be dealt with & how, from your perspective?</b><br /><br />We resolve conflicts with difficulty but ultimately by talking and talking. And it’s not always easy because sometimes you just don’t want to talk or you don’t to hear what the other person has to say. But what I’m learning is that the best results are achieved when we talk with reduced emotional hit, so when the emotions are not running high and we’ve both taken time to separate from it.<br /><br />I don’t think jealousy in a relationship is good because I think it breeds mistrust and/or suspicion, which can lead to saying things that you really don’t mean. It can be dealt with sometimes but it has to be two ways, because there’s dealing with what makes the jealous party jealous, and also making sure that you don’t engage in behaviour that makes the other person jealous.<br /><br /><b>8. I always thought that guys who were always talking about sex and being very shallow about it were just immature and I sort of labeled them as the bad guys. I've recently come to find out that about 98% of all males think this way, some of them just do a better job at hiding their thoughts. Could you talk about this? Hopefully this isn't too out there for you.</b><br /><br /><div>This is an interesting question. I mean yes, guys have sex on the brain. But that said, depending on your relationship with the guy, he would handle it maturely or immaturely but make no mistakes about it, it’s on the brain. So whether he says it or not, he’s thinking it.<br /><br /><b>9. Your wife sounds like a hopeless romantic from her posts and someone with a lot of expectations of love and marriage as well! Honestly, are there days you feel overwhelmed and not up -to meeting up with her expectations. How do you cope with instances where you just want to be left alone and do not feel up to the “us” thing. </b><br /><br />More often than not I do feel overwhelmed, but it is something I knew about before I got married so I prepared myself mentally for it. Yes I do get times where, not that I don’t enjoy her company I do, but there are times I want to be more mundane and not romantic even though I know Kemi likes romance. It’s all a learning process. I cope with it in a mix of ways. Sometimes I put myself through the discipline of being romantic even if I don’t feel it, and other times, I try to make up for my being unromantic by just showering her with kisses. And she loves kisses, so that helps many times. Haha.<br /><br /><b>10. What advice do you have for some of us women that are like your wife, in the sense that we crave for attention from our better half, in the reality of marriage?</b><br /><br />There’s nothing wrong with craving attention. So don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. You just have to understand that there are some times that your other half may not be forthcoming with the attention you want in the way that you want it but you’ve got to roll with it. <br /><br />******</div><div><br /></div><div>I think some of the answers are directed to me! *wink. Lol.<br /><br /></div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-40099834302706037192011-09-06T00:10:00.000-07:002011-09-06T01:01:19.681-07:00Re-falling in LoveThis is something I've mentioned before but not sure I've done a full blog post on it. You see, from my perspective, one of the best and absolute glorious things about marriage is the unexpected "re-falling in love" with your spouse. This is something I've never thought about before and certainly I don't recall anybody talking about it within my hearing. As Bo and I are steadily moving towards 2 years of marriage, there have been several instances where I've caught myself falling in love with my husband all over again. The feeling is like the first time. That moment when you look up at the other person and just realize that to you, they are just the best creation God ever created, and you're just in awe, or you just think that other person is just...the best ever! I catch myself looking at Bo with new eyes, filled with adoration anew, feeling so lucky and so blessed.<div><br /></div><div>This all sounds good but the process of 're-falling in love' with your spouse is not a pretty one. I'm now in that phase and this morning started wondering, well wait a minute, what brings this feeling on? I think I experience this "re-falling" in the days, weeks, months after Bo & I have had a mid to serious disagreement/falling out/fight. About two weeks ago we experience what I would term the biggest falling out we've EVER had. There were tears, there were hours of talks, it lasted a few days, yes <i>days </i>(though whenever we fight we still tend to cuddle together at night, nothing should get in the way of a good cuddle! lol). There were threats of "this just isn't working out for me", oh yes, the whole she-bang. As a side note, friends are always amazed when they're hanging out with us and make a quip about how cute and perfect we are and I tell them well we had a big fight this morning. For some reason no one ever believes us! I count this as a blessing really. But continuing on with the story, it was REALLY bad. I have to say even right in the middle of one of the many outbursts during the few days of the "fight", I had promised a friend I would cater for her birthday party so I was cooking in the kitchen. Even though we were going at it as I was cooking, Bo still said "what do you need help with?" and then started to chop up veggies etc. And even though we were both upset to the point of exhaustion, I remember thanking God that we still worked together as partners and got things done. I know it sounds like we maybe were just having a little tiff when this happened, but believe me we were having the LOWEST moment in our relationship and marriage. Yet my husband rolled up his sleeves and we got to working together in accomplishing a task. This is amazing to me.</div><div><br /></div><div>After fighting for what seemed like constantly for about 3 days, both Bo and I were just exhausted. We gave each other breaks but we were still constantly talking. Then during one of these talks, for some reason the communication finally clicked, we both felt we were being heard and we both understood each other. I had started praying fervently, fervently for God to really give me the Spirit of Forgiveness. I did share with Bo that I was struggling with letting my anger go and that I need help with that because I was ready to let it go. He just nodded his head and said he understood and hugged me. God worked in us, he really did. When you go through arguments with your spouse, for some reason we always come out feeling stronger and more melded together than ever. Like Bo & I agreed, when you share all your ups <b>and all your downs</b> with a single person, no one else has those very shared experiences, just you two, that's the magic of marriage, of two becoming one. You start to forget the lines that separate you two as individuals because you are now experiencing life in the same way, in the same prism. Your good days are also their good days and your bad days are also their bad days. Maybe it's the romanticism of this that creates that feeling of falling in love over again. </div><div><br /></div><div>Last week Bo & I were visiting with a friend of our who's is single but just frustrated about relationships etc. Bo started talking to him about what he believes about relationships: communication, validating the other person, respect, etc. Everything that was coming out of his mouth sounded like such wisdom I had to actually look back at him half-amazed. My husband is SMART! I was really impressed and said out loud "see, this is why I married this man". Swoon. AND he tells me at least once a week that I'm gorgeous. Swoon. AND he<b> still</b> showers me with "million kisses" every single morning....SWOON. :-)</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><b><i>Overheard in the BoKem Household</i></b></div><div>Bit of background: while I love our flat where we live, we have been here for a few years and quite frankly I'm getting tired of it and I've been itching to move to a bigger place. Bo knows this. Also we have empty land in Ikoyi.</div><div><br /></div><div><b>Bo</b>: What do you think? So it seems we should be able to start building our own place on that land next year, but the catch is that we would have to stay in this flat for two more years {taking us to 4th quarter 2014}</div><div><br /></div><div><b>Me</b>: Well that's great hon but you know we can't have any babies in this flat.</div><div><br /></div><div><b>Bo</b>: Uhm, okay maybe just another year then. {taking us to 4th qtr 2013}.</div><div><br /></div><div><b>Me</b>: silence.</div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-70683146843394969162011-08-29T02:22:00.000-07:002011-08-29T02:58:04.322-07:00Abandoned Blog +1<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWrWIQkr_uHoZpiOO9rPiTUQ9yg3SIjSIkhbXYtsJHLEbN75CHD1YVEJ322-E_EmT_tvDPa26ujLiLBfLFv0cOrg_CeP6IG10BAtTTu1AqMaS2RI1vnfSB8tAb9Fon9f2XIc_7HyNEreoG/s1600/2e77b597.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 215px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWrWIQkr_uHoZpiOO9rPiTUQ9yg3SIjSIkhbXYtsJHLEbN75CHD1YVEJ322-E_EmT_tvDPa26ujLiLBfLFv0cOrg_CeP6IG10BAtTTu1AqMaS2RI1vnfSB8tAb9Fon9f2XIc_7HyNEreoG/s320/2e77b597.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5646207826373235634" /></a>
<br /><div>Have I abandoned this blog? Maybe. Maybe not. I've been extremely busy, but I know that's a familiar refrain. It really is true though. Thing is being extremely busy with work means you have to play catch up with friends and family and by the time that is done, you just don't have the time to sit, think, then compose your thoughts on the blog. I can say that I will do better but I truly don't know I'll play it by ear.</div><div>
<br /></div><div>Now on to baby bumps and the biggest baby bump of them all: the Carter baby bump aka Beyonce's Bun In the Oven. I mentioned very early on in the life of this blog that Beyonce and Jayz are one of the couples that I look to and that inspires me (the other are the Obamas). I have to say when I saw her on the View a few weeks back, I said to Bo, I think this chick is preggers. He teased me because he thought I was just thinking that from the song "Countdown" in which she says "I'm trying to make us three..." Bo thinks I'm nuts. Lol. Anyway, I'd like to think I called it early. Ha. But on a serious note any and everything brings to mind my own baby watch and since Beyonce and I are reasonably agemates, the news of her expecting has got me in a conflicting mood. Everyone's having babies! Do I want one?</div><div>
<br /></div><div>Last week Bo and I had a serious conversation about babywatch (yet again) and though he didn't say it, my sense is that he's not ready for a child or to be a father. I think he's one of those people who probably won't see themselves in that role until they're nearing forty. I understand that. He also mentioned he's a bit anxious or worried about the possibility of my infertility so he's not sure he wants to jump into that kettle of fish just yet. I understand this also. But I'm left thinking what is it I (ME) want? We went visiting with a friend of ours who has a 4-month old baby and she grabbed me aside and said "Let me talk to you, if you want to have kids, take it from me just do it now and get it over with, just do it. I'm so relieved I have this child now, all the weight is taken off my shoulders, I can move on with my life now. Just do it." Sigh. Now I appreciate her advise and really love her for actually giving it to me, but it's just put so much pressure on me and my thoughts. Should I just do it now and get it over with? If I'm completely honest with myself, I've never been one of those women who sees herself being someone's mother (or even wife for that matter and look how that turned out!). Bo said to me during our conversation "It's not like you can give it back when you're done" and this is so true and hit me. It's not a, "let's just try it..." kind of decision, it's yours for life. What happens when:</div><div><ol><li>You don't think you're ready for a baby BUT</li><li>You're medically at risk for infertility AND</li><li>You're not getting any younger</li><li>You're almost sure if you're 50 and don't have a child you'll regret not having the experience PLUS</li><li>Your hubby is not ready (and you need him to be ready for this kind of thing)</li></ol><div>Now some people have all kinds of clever ways to deal with point #5, let me say that I don't subscribe to any of that. I need my husband to be ready (it's just courtesy for another human being's feelings), and to be excited about it as well. So that takes care of that. However there's still the issue of everything put together.</div></div><div>
<br /></div><div>So there's that. Thanks Beyonce for adding to baby pressure....lol. I'm really happy for her though.</div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-40116429954065976972011-08-02T13:16:00.000-07:002011-08-02T13:40:27.582-07:00Bo Answers! Part 1I've finally wrangled Bo to finish his answers. The first half Bo wrote himself, and the second half he wrote some and he dictated some to me (while he was ironing his shirt for work tomorrow!). Without much further ado, here are Bo's answers, I'm very much looking forward to the comments.<div><br /></div><div>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~</div><div><br /></div><div><!--StartFragment--> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpFirst" style="text-indent:-18.0pt;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family:"Trebuchet MS";mso-fareast-font-family: "Trebuchet MS";mso-bidi-Trebuchet MS";font-family:";font-size:13.0pt;color:#262626;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">1</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">.</span></span><span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></b></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">My question is does Bolaji have an accent? (I dunno why but I've always been curious as you (Kemi) come across as well cultured and you mentioned you have lived outside Nigeria for most of your life, Bolaji on the other hand hasn't, so do you encounter any problems culture wise?</span></span></b></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">‘Problems’ is a strong word but our different cultural backgrounds do throw up issues. These are usually issues regarding approach to or point of view on any given subject matter or problem. Fortunately it came up early in our relationship – by came up, I mean we both noticed how we differently saw the world and engaged with it. And because we started off talking about everything and we still do, understanding that side of Kemi is easier. I didn’t say easy, (cultural issues still come up), but we have found our rhythm. <o:p></o:p></span></span></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">a.</span></span></b><span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></b></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">How has marriage changed you as a person and whether you feel being married has changed your relationships with other people and vice versa as women often experience this problem.</span></span></b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></p><p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Marriage has made me a more patient person and I’m still learning. You can’t be married to a person especially one as opinionated as Kemi without learning a thing or two about patience. Paradoxically, being married has made me less patient with my relationships with other people. I attribute it partly to the short shrift that I think Kemi gives people but also the ‘safety’ of my relationship that I can run to when people piss me off. </span></span></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraph" style="text-indent:-18.0pt;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">2.</span></span><span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></b></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I'd like to read a blog post about the many misconceptions he had about women and marriage prior to settling down and what the realities are. Also what he thinks about marriage.</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I think my primary misconception about marriage was how difficult it would be. I think my parents, whose marriage I have been most influenced by, have had a good marriage and they make it seem easy. So I had always thought that marriage would be easy especially since I have a ‘relaxed’ disposition. I was wrong. The reality of marriage is hard and by hard I mean difficult - a true partnership is a constant work in progress. Sometimes when I think we get to a good place and that we can coast, I always learn differently. But it is a good kind of work and I am enjoying it </span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">J</span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">. Its early days yet, but we continue the good work.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraph" style="text-indent:-18.0pt;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">3.</span></span><span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></b></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I know you mentioned that there was a point in time when Bo didn't want to get married (please correct me if I'm wrong). I would just like to know what changed his mind. Was it falling in love with and growing to love you? Or did his ideas of marriage change as he grew older?</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Probably the decade before I got married, I didn’t think that marriage was a) a necessary part of growing up nor b) a desirable part. I have to admit that I haven’t fully thought through why I felt this way despite what I think is the reasonably good example of my parents and other couples around me. Don’t get me wrong, I have always appreciated the upsides of a marriage relationship – companionship, etc, I just didn’t think I had to be married to get those benefits.</span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">An issue that does come to mind is that I didn’t (and still don’t) like the dynamic in many marriages that I saw – couples settled into a way of doing things that I thought put one of the couple ‘down’ in one way or the other. This in my opinion is against my long held opinion that marriage should be a partnership in every way.</span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I think I became more comfortable with the idea of marriage as I grew to understand that the dynamic that I saw and disliked was each couple’s way of making the relationship work for them – a compromise they had come to about how to be married.</span></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Now that I’m married, the challenge I see for Kemi and I in our marriage is striving for that ideal of a true partnership with the compromises we agree on to make living with another human being work, compromises that sometimes mean that a perfect partnership is not possible.</span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I still don’t think marriage is a necessary part of growing up, but I think my views on it have matured over the last few years. And yes, the person I’m with helped frame my views on the institution and its practical aspects.</span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">What's his favorite thing about you and about being married? </span></span></b></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span></b><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">a.</span></span></b><span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></b></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I know you once mentioned you were celibate before marriage. How did he handle it as a man (they're often seen as sex-crazed)? Does he think it enhanced your relationship? What are your views on pre-marital sex versus celibacy (by celibacy i mean complete abstinence from all forms of sexual activity )in relationships?</span></span></b></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><b></b></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">b.</span></span></b><span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></b></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">What are the top tips you will give single ladies who have reached the marriageable age? </span></span></b></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><b></b></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">c.</span></span></b><span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></b></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">From a guy's perspective, what should women consider red flags in a guy they’re planning to settle down with?</span></span></b></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><o:p><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></o:p></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Q: What is my favorite thing about being married? A: Waking up next to someone who has also committed to work at this relationship for life. (I think its also the scariest thing about being married). My favorite things about Kemi are her boobs. Ha! Seriously though, my favorite thing about my wife is that she’s an encourager. She naturally encourages everyone around her, not just me but also her family and friends.</span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">About celibacy I think it’s up to the couple. My personal view is that it is a good thing even though I wasn’t throughout my premarital stage, but celibacy is much easier to follow if you never started in the first place. Do I wish I never started? Yes and No. How did I handle it as a man, the straightforward answer is cold showers. Nothing more I can say about that. I do think it enhanced our relationship because it allowed us to talk about being intimate without being intimate physically. I believe it improved our ability to communicate about sex and about intimacy. Although one could say Kemi and I already talked about everything so it only followed that we’d talk about sex as well.</span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Top tips to single ladies: Look for real friendships. I appreciate that this may not be so simple but I think it was (and still is) an important (if not the most important) aspect of my relationship with Kemi. Unfortunately real friendships require a lot of time, effort and some heartache to develop. Read: its damn hard to do. Maybe this is not so much a tip as a warning.</span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(38, 38, 38); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">As for red flags, I think this is a hard question because when talking about someone you want to settle down with you have to think to yourself about things you can live with and things that are deal breakers. Ultimately who you want to settle down with is individual, it is you that has to decide what you can deal with and what are deal breakers. For me, I believe a guy that hits you or abuses you mentally, verbally, or physically is a big red flag. Someone women find a way to rationalize anything but if I were to generalize that would be it. </span></span></span></p> <!--EndFragment--> </div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2289770347357861607.post-4902059697881431852011-08-01T14:58:00.000-07:002011-08-01T15:29:08.183-07:00Let's Talk About Sex<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi37gHbTiNUfBkurfx_48fNl_Mu1AmzoWjU-Fst8KcTQYQMNQtIAVkRfpuzlpM9b9A8bwc2O1jfpGnh68By4inJoXjtFl8k3Q-JEdpcBH1SqNJKM0LuefqCzVixiTgDYBQey49zzbu6hGp_/s1600/aa-couple-talk-sex.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 236px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi37gHbTiNUfBkurfx_48fNl_Mu1AmzoWjU-Fst8KcTQYQMNQtIAVkRfpuzlpM9b9A8bwc2O1jfpGnh68By4inJoXjtFl8k3Q-JEdpcBH1SqNJKM0LuefqCzVixiTgDYBQey49zzbu6hGp_/s320/aa-couple-talk-sex.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5636011046675101010" /></a><br /><div>I was reading another blog post when this post came to me and I knew i just have to write about it. I've heard too many times too many women talk and worry about sexual compatibility and what the man is packing or how he is packing. I've seen friends dismiss very lovely men because of some perceived sexual deficiency and others who've waited worry about sexual performance after the wedding. It's no secret that I truly believe that my relationship with Bo was orchestrated by the Divine Himself and I thank God every day that we were both lucky enough to not mess things up too badly.</div><div><br /></div><div>But I have a story to tell about our sexual history. In the beginning of our relationship Bo and I did embark on a sexual relationship. Where our story takes a wild turn is that as it became apparent that ours was a serious one, we both decided that we were going to be celibate until we were married. Those beginning times were not pretty. I would say Bo and I were not compatible sexually. Based on my experiences I wanted one thing, and based on his experiences he wanted something else. It was very VERY awkward those days. However as it became clearer to me that I was falling in love with this man, I knew I had to take matters into my own hands. We started to talk openly about our histories, anxieties, desires, wants and needs. We shared everything about what importance we place on sexual satiety and really I believe this was probably the foundation of us deciding to be celibate later on. Then I decided within myself that I was going to be patient, encouraging, and honest with this man. I wanted him to feel comfortable with me, to feel comfortable trying and failing and trying again. I wanted things to be natural and fun, and with him being a man I wanted him to own his sexuality, his feelings. I was open to learning his style and rhythm and I got over any shyness and was very open about what I liked, how, and when. I think this really helped us, my being willing to teach as it were, what it was that worked for me. So many women don't want to teach because of their shyness or for fear of being labeled. I say don't be afraid of your body and of what it is telling you. I think lastly we just decided to have fun with it, to create a safe fun haven for both of us to express ourselves and enjoy each other. If it's awkward, so be it. We'll get the hang of it eventually. </div><div><br /></div><div>We hadn't fully learnt this lesson when we decided to go celibate. However I think I'm the loudest testament to the fact that one year and a half year into my marriage, I have the most satisfying sex life I've ever had in my life (and that's saying...well, enough). My husband truly rocks my world and I can say that confidently. Whenever I hear women say, "I can't talk to him because the sexual chemistry is not there", I always think what is that? Trust me, once you fall in love with a man, half the battle is done. Love is amazing. It is the tie that God has used to bind us together and believe me it is perfect. If the guy is a wonderful person, kind soul, thoughtful, and madly in love with you, allow yourself to be swept away in love. The sex is supposed to come later, it WILL come later, and it WILL be fabulous. Don't worry and allow yourself to fall!</div><div><br /></div><div>PS - For those waiting for Bo's post, he's written about half of it. Honestly at this point, I'm not sure WHEN the other half is going to get written. I'll remind him tomorrow. I have to say, having read a bit of it, it's no where as colored as my writing, very much less mushy and much more methodical, practical, and straightforward. I should have expected that though. </div>Kemihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17872248415420381677noreply@blogger.com15