Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Catch Up...How Are YOU Doing?

Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Hello to everyone out there.

Happy New Year and happy everything that has passed while I've given the blog a bit of a rest.  It wasn't really by choice but it is quite possible that I'm growing past blogging in general.  I've also tried to declutter my other tech/social media communication outlets.  Sometimes I feel there's entirely too much sharing and I just want to live and experience my journeys rather than always documenting everything as I go along.

Considering that the last few times I blogged, a lot of negativity came out of the woodwork, it was also a good time to give it (and give them) a rest.  I was quite frankly so surprised at how reluctant some people are to 1) be happy for another human being 2) believe that true happiness does exist.  I was saddened by what I was reading and I didn't want to be sad about it anymore in many cases.  Bo simply would shake his head at me and wondered why I was even getting so involved to begin with.  It got downright mean and catty and I was confused and surprised that such could result from a blog that truly comes from a beautiful place on my part - to chronicle and to share.  We as women don't share our experiences very often and I think we should, we carry so much.  It's hard being a woman! We should stick together and help and support and encourage each other. No Matter What.  There's enough negativity in the world, I definitely don't want to be one of the voices adding to it.

Anyway, Bo and I have been great.  We're in the third year of our marriage and certainly no longer in the honeymoon phase...ha!  I look at it as us earning our stripes.  And three years is not a whole lot, but it's enough to not have an idealistic view of life, of marriage, but conversely, to also still be able to not be stale.  We're not quite an old married couple but we're getting there.  In my saner moments, I love this.  We're just two old fogies, growing old together, and making a life together.  It may not be the best possible life, but it's ours and we own it.  We're comfortable and settled and we love each other, not in that fairytale way, but in a "flesh of my flesh" way.  Bo is my family and within his heart resides my home.  If reincarnation were real, my soul would search all over again, until it found his.   This I know for sure.

The good news is...I do believe we shall be trying to expand our family very soon.  You know, it's not what I thought it would be like, like they portray in the movies.  For us it's not both parent staring with glazed eyes at each other in love as they decide they want to have babies.  For us it's so methodical, with many iterations and a final "okay...well, if we must".  I think we'll be excited once it finally happens but right now we're more tentative about it all.  We've lost about 1/3rd of our income in the last few months due to some scenarios I will not discuss, but I think this largely contributes to our trepidation.  Nevertheless, I think we're going to start soon.  At least I bought vitamins (though haven't started taking them!), and made an appointment for a preconception check up!  We have to be really careful because of my medical condition which I've mentioned a few times.  If left unmonitored, it could jeopardize my life.

I've always said I would try and share this journey on this blog.  It could be long, it could be short, it could be stressful, it could be easy.  Like I said earlier, we haven't quite started yet, but that's where the train is headed.  Or we may chicken out and adopt or something.  Who knows - but that's the fun in the journey of life!
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