I Do, Don't I?

Wow, the last 24hours have been very busy. The project I came here to do has been intensifying and I just didn't have that much time to myself. Right now it's 1am and I just finished looking over one of our documents and heading to sleep veeeery soon, lol.

So what's been going on? Well, as well as busy with work, yesterday was a bit of a strange one. Now hang on to your seats ladies (or fellas as the case may be!), cue the drumroll...contrary to what some of the comments I've had so far (by my new lovely blog ladies!) have assumed, Bolaji and I are not married ooooo! We're not even engaged. Now this may come as a surprise or thicken the plot to make this blog more interesting *giggle*. Bolaji and I are just two lovebirds who've been dating for about 2 years now in total. I know sometimes, when I talk (oops, write) it sounds like we're already married with children! It's just that we've talked about so many of these things that I can very easily recall how either he or I feel about an issue.

Now you see I knew just a few months into the relationship that this man is the one for me. It hit me like a ton of bricks really. But there he was and there I was and I just felt it and I still feel it just as strongly today as I did then. Now many of you may wonder, so if you guys knew waaay back then then why the time? Well that's one of the reasons yesterday was such a strange one. We've been having this back and forth thing for a while. Bolaji says I'm his wife. I say I know he's my husband. Bolaji I think wants a big wedding. I want a small one. Bolaji doesn't have the kind of extra income for a big wedding yet so he suggests we do an introduction/engagement thingy and then do the wedding later. Now, I say we can do introduction/engagement thingy oooo, but I want my grand proposal and my ring first. No ring, no preparation. Finish. It's been kind of a stalemate from there on out. I get time periods when I think to myself maybe I should just go do thing but everytime I think that, I think to myself why compromise on my ideals??? You see I've always thought to myself, when the whole wedding discussion ever comes up for me, it would NOT be like a discussion thing like a lot of Nigerian couples do, but a real proposal, with a real ring, and all of that. So now I have the guy but not the proposal what do I do?

Yesterday I was down again cuz I was thinking well how long do I have to wait for the ring/proposal??? It's been a while abi? Talking to Bolaji, he noticed something was wrong in my voice and asked me what it was. Since we made a vow to each other to always tell each other everything even if it was uncomfortable or difficult, or taboo, or anything, just spill it and then we deal with it from there. So I had to tell him what I was thinking. He just went into the whole Intro/Engagmt thing again. I'm thinking to myself, why oh why can't you just budget and buy my ring already? Or is something wrong? Am I missing something? After that conversation, I picked up my Bible and started to read and as always the words soothed my soul.

I've left everything to God. He created me and knows where he's taking me. Everything will be alright.